The first semester of my Junior year of college is over!!!
(And, I don't think I've come to terms with the fact that this is real life...)
It wasn't even until yesterday that I realized I haven't posted since September, and when I read what I had written then, it felt like it was just last week that I spent time writing that. I've been 21 for over 6 weeks already, and I feel like it was just last weekend that I blew out my candles. The older I have gotten, the more I can see time going by faster and faster. This semester, I made so many amazing memories, learned so many awesome things, and had so much fun writing so many papers. But, it still doesn't feel like December.
Needless to say, this semester flew by.
Over the past few months, I think the main factor in my incomprehension of how fast the days, weeks, and months went by was simply because of the attempt I was making to live more in the moment. If you talked to me about the future, of course I didn't hesitate to go into all the details of how I see it unfolding, but other than that, I didn't daydream about it too much. This was a goal I set for myself in late September with the mindset of really soaking up each moment I got to spend with the people around me. I stayed very up to date with my Snapchat and Instagram truly desiring to stay connected with everyone and everything.
(This also made me more invested in the lives of celebrities, so shoutout to all my friends who put up with me talking about them 24/7 as if they were on my speed-dial and we had plans to grab coffee later. Sorry! Lol.)
This goal I set forced me to see life in a different eye, and live my own advice of being content in whatever situation you are in. Where I am right now might not be where I'll always stay, but I've made a vow to myself promising to stay content no. matter. what.
Media and society have put thoughts in our minds making us believe that the "grown-up" world is sooo much better than living like you're young. We want to be 30, but look like we're 21. There are so many expectations for us because of what our culture thinks we should be doing. But, the reality is, we have our entire lives to grow up. Why should we be expected to have it all figured out by the time we're 22?
So, I'll be the first to admit, I know where I want to be, but I'm still not 100% sure how I'm going to get there.
But, I'm taking baby steps. I applied, and received an internship for the spring semester with College Fashionista as a Style Guru. (That's something you can be on the lookout for! I'm super stoked!!!)
But, there really is no way to make dreams become reality without learning, experiencing, and embracing our adolescence first and foremost.
Right now, we don't know what we're talking about, but someday we will.
And, someday we'll rule the world.
As much as I can't wait to grow up and follow my dreams,
I'm comfortable with being forced to find contentment in my vulnerability, having to ask questions, and knowing that there will be a day when all that I hope for finally becomes my reality.
For now, just keep on keeping on.